WHAT the HELL is your EGO???

Hitherto the subject of the Ego has been a very controversial one. Many people postulate that the ego is some sort of esoteric belief which has no tangible source for reasoning. I have spent a considerable amount of time trying to understand the karma of the ego. Why it is there, what it does and why we have one. Today Id like to formulate my perceptions on this subject because I think it is one of the utmost and crucial things that we need to understand in and on our life journey here as humans.

When people talk about the ego they tend to talk very lightly of it. Even with little or no understanding of the subject at all, it still seems to crop up in conversations every now and then. In general I have concluded that the preponderance of people whom chose to converse about the ego believe it to be something that ‘makes you do bad things’. So without further a do lets get into the details and see what we can understand about the ego.

Every human has an ego. It is commonly expressed as the ‘voice in our head’ or the thing that told us to do something bad that maybe we wouldn’t usually have indulged in. There are many philosophers that believe that Satan, the Devil and other evil entities are actually just the ego written into a story to help you understand what it is or how it works etc Im sure you can remember certain cartoons when you may have been younger that aired on TV that showed a character with a Devil on one shoulder advising him and an Angel on the other also trying its best to guide the character to doing the right thing. This is a great way to perceive the battle of the ego against the higher self (soul). I think by envisioning the ego vs the soul in such a way can help us understand a little bit more about the ego and the bad tricks it plays on us. The ego is mainly a ‘bad’ thing and we really should work towards disallowing its power over us.

Why is the ego a ‘bad thing’?

The ego makes us do foolish, dangerous and preposterous things. It gets us in trouble, it tells us to do silly things and it takes control of us fully. The ego works in many mysterious and secretive ways without us having the slightest idea it even exists. Because if you knew it was there and how it actually works against you, you would instantly disburden yourself of its ascendancy.

If the ego is bad, why is it here bestowed upon us?

The ego is within us because it makes us learn. It presents us with a multitude of opportunities to learn and gain experience along our journeys. The problem arises when the ego gets so engrained within us as we develop into adults and seems to become us. That is the one true and dangerous issue. The ego says to you,

‘I AM YOU’.

The ego becomes you. It then becomes your one and only source for direction and guidance when you feel like you most need help from that inner voice. You have allowed the evil to become you and you base all your decisions on those fabricated and created by your ego. You are basically under control and have no power to make real, honest, caring and compassionate decisions. Your life becomes based upon fear, anger, anxiety, victimisation, obsessive behaviours, dominance, uncontrollable emotions, desire, needs, wants and attachments. None of these things are actually you. When you were born and in your most natural state of ‘being’ the only thing you wanted or desired was the loving attention from your mother. Only when you start to grow up and the ego starts to set in do all these unnatural wants, needs and desires start to kick in and become a controlling force upon you. When you are young and at the ages of around 3-8 years old you don’t care what colour the other kids are, how the other kids look or what clothing they are sporting. Only when we start to grow up does the ego start to create an awful trait within us called judgement. We grow up and we start to judge others. Judgement is one of the worst possible traits a human being can have. It makes us ugly when we chose to judge others. Judgment causes separation, religion, sexism, racism and disconnection. All of these characteristics are unfortunately the quintessential ingredients for destruction, destruction of the world, peace, love and humanity itself.

I watched a movie recently that stars the famous actor Jason Statham. He walks out of a building just before he gets ran over by a car and says this verse, which is an absolutely fantastic way to explain how, what and who the ego is inside of us. Just read,

‘There is something about yourself that you don’t know. Something that you will deny even exists, until it’s too late to do anything about it. It’s the only reason you get up in the morning. The only reason you suffer the shitty puss, the blood, the sweat and the tears. This is because you want people to know how good, attractive, generous, funny, wild and clever you really are. Fear or revere me, but please, think I’m special. We share an addiction. We’re approval junkies. We’re all in it for the slap on the back and the gold watch. The hip-hip-hoo-fuckin’ rah. Look at the clever boy with the badge, polishing his trophy. Shine on you crazy diamond, because we’re just monkeys wrapped in suits, begging for the approval of others.’ – Jake Green (Movie – Revolver)

Couldn’t have put it better myself!

The ego controls us by making us WANT things. We WANT attention and we certainly WANT approval. We desire everything thats big, shiny and new. Why? Because we simply WANT to be BETTER than others. We buy a Mercedes because of the name badge. A car is for transportation, nothing else. But we WANT to show off by purchasing a ‘named’ car, with a fancy badge and a high ticket price. Why? Because we WANT approval, we believe our car choice says things about us as INDIVIDUALS. The badge, the shape, the colour and the price tag seem to justify what league we are in. Drive a Porsche, Ferrari or Bentley and you are rich, youv’e made it. Drive a Mercedes, BMW or Audi and you are ‘Middle class’. Drive anything less and you haven’t made it yet and you are not worthy of being accepted by the upper or middle class people yet. What are these systems, leagues and levels that people yearn to accomplish? What an absolutely absurd way of thinking and ‘doing’ life. But, everyone is doing life exactly this way and we wonder why the world has gone crazy! We BLAME others, leaders, presidents and terrorists but we never seem to want to blame ourselves. It is US and that is that!!!

Juluis Ceaser once said,

‘The greatest enemy will hide in the last place you would ever look’.

He is clearly talking about the ego in this statement. The ‘enemy’ IS your ego. It wont let you know that as it WANTS to strive and live on inside of you. The ego never wants to lose power over you as it feeds off of your fears daily. You are being controlled by your ego and its only YOU, YES only YOU, who can help yourself. There are two conflicting voices inside of our heads, the ego will 99% of the time be the most dominant one and the higher self (your soul) will be pushed aside and be much more submissive. You need to learn to access your higher self and to shut off the ego. Much more easier said than done.

How do we proceed to eliminate the control of the ego?

First off we need to learn what it is the ego does to us, what it makes us do and how we can then stop ourselves from playing along with it. So without further a do lets have a look at a list of things that the ego does to us so we can identify the issues and work on resolving them. The ego makes us:

WANT things

DESIRE things

NEED things

ACT Angry and out of control

FEAR things

An INDIVIDUAL

THINK we are RIGHT, YOU are WRONG

LABEL ourselves

THINK we are something unique and special

BELIEVE we deserve something

The list goes on.

None of these things we did as children so why do we do them as ‘adults’?

EGO.

Once we start to realise what is happening we can then proceed to dismantle the defective relationship we have with our ego. From personal experience I started with judgment. Every time I was about to judge someone for being fat, shopping in the cake isle in Asda Id stop. Ok it wasn’t that easy like it all just stopped instantaneously but the moment you start to put effort into something and that effort comes from the heart then it will soon flourish into an effortless doing. Just by starting to cut out little niggles like judgment, or bouts of anger etc you will soon start to see the benefits by taking control of your ego.

When we go out shopping or we are sat at home online aimlessly browsing pointless material goods pondering what items we think we NEED to buy to make ourselves feel better, look better and to grant us the approval by our peers we NEED to ask ourselves,

Do I REALLY need this? 

NOT

Do I want (need) this? 

The real meaning of NEED is that you actually are in need of something to survive or to complete a project etc The real definition of the word need should not be used whilst shopping for material good because you don’t NEED any of them! So unless you NEED this thing to survive you just WANT the item/s to show off, to fit in or to feel better which are ALL traits of the controlling ego. This habit we have of shopping is completely ego driven. The DESIRE to look or ‘feel good’ are all driven by your ego. I put feel good in inverted commas because its a widely used terminology that many people pass off as a viable excuse to buying expensive clothing, ‘It makes me feel good’. That is a load of BS.

So the question is do YOU really need the item? If its cold and you are buying a proper duck down or cold weather jacket that has purpose then of course this is not an ego driven action. But if you are cold and buying a pink fur lined high end, high cost jacket to    dualistically cover both cold weather issues and fashion issues at the same time this decision is still being over ruled and dominated by the ego.

The last two points I’m going to cover include; being unique and an individual and also labelling ourselves. Im going to quickly cover the latter as it is a very simple matter to discuss. We want to label ourselves purely to make ourselves look or sound better than someone else. ‘Hi, Im Doctor…’ sounds so much better than, ‘Hi, I work at McDonalds’. This sort of labelling and fabricated hierarchy causes separation from others and gives people what they believe a moral authority over others. If you believe you have a higher standing than someone else, whether its because you have a ‘higher education’, a better job, house, family name or rank within a business then you are ego driven. To separate yourself from another by saying you have power over them, you are wiser or obtain more knowledge means you are 100% judgmental and egoistic. You are no better than anyone else. That is the truth.

‘The ability to observe without evaluating is the highest form of intelligence’.

We are all completely equal, we are just souls experiencing life as a human. We all have our own paths and journeys no matter how esoteric, spiritual or religious you are, or are not. I do personally believe that a high percentage of people still would agree that we all have our own callings in life and we follow our paths no matter what. Now on to the last point, we are all connected. We are all sharing the same planet, the same food, water, energy and oxygen. We are souls, as I mentioned just a moment a go, having human experiences. We are all humans, well most of us, and we are all experiencing our individual journeys. Now just because we are all on a unique journey doesn’t mean we are so unique we have to become something spectacular or legend like to stand out and become noticed. This conception is just a ridiculous measure that the ego places upon us. There is no need to become anyone to do anything. We think we have to strive, to push the boundaries, to work until our hands bleed until we become ‘something’ but we don’t. This ideology is a complete fallacy. All we have to do on our journeys is just experience what we came here to experience and that is it. It is us humans and our egos that make everything so onerous and unnecessary.

Life is as hard as you make it. If you allow the ego to control you, you are surely making your life a very difficult one indeed. Slow down, take a moment and think about what you are doing in life. Are you making decisions based on compassion, love, care and creativity? Or are you leading a life of lies, fear, deceit, desire, anger and judgement? You are the owner and carer of your own mind. There is a true loving and guiding voice inside your own head, you just have to learn to listen to the right one.

I hope you enjoyed reading this blog and If you did enjoy it Id much appreciate a like, comment or even a share if possible! Thank you in advance readers. Om shanti!

With LOVE 

Yours Truly

Illuminatus

Om Shanti

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You Are An Approval Whore

Why do we do things for approval?

We buy silly things that cost silly amounts of money just to receive approval from silly people.

You don’t buy fancy things for yourself. That statement is bullshit and a big fat lie.

Youv’e just been dropped into the jungle and you have ten items required for your survival in your possession. In front of you there is a shop selling two types of bags. One is a small plasticky ‘Gucci’ bag worth £700. The other bag is a small ‘Berghaus’ rucksack worth £70. You are going to need to survive for 1 year, what bag are you likely to take?

Yes, obviously you will take the Berghaus rucksack. A well made, rugged and durable piece of equipment much up to the task of protecting, storing and carrying your items safely. So why do we chose to buy stupid shiny, fancy, tacky and impractical, named bags to wonder around the high-street in?

The short answer is…

Because you want to fit in. You want approval. You are an approval whore. 

Why?

The reason people want to fit in and want to feel the acceptance of others is to do with insecurity. Insecurity simply stems from lack of self love and lack of self awareness. People believe that they aren’t good enough so they must by ‘add-ons’ to make them feel like they will be more acceptable to others. This is totally absurd but it goes on each and everyday, all over the world. We have a yearning to want to be someone or something else. Something that we are currently not whatever it is you want to be. The problem is that wanting to be something you are not means you will never ever ever have true love for yourself or others. Yes i said others. Someone once said to me…

If you cannot love yourself, you cannot love anybody else. 

You have too truly love yourself unconditionally before you can love anyone else. That love you believe you have for others is not love. It is a mixture of attachment, infatuation or a want or need for the company of that said person.

Self awareness?

Self awareness is truly knowing who you are, what you are supposed to do and what you are good/bad at. If you know who you are you don’t need ‘add-ons’ to enhance yourself. You don’t need ‘add-ons’ to make other people accept who you are because when you know yourself, you should know that if someone doesn’t accept you for who you are in your natural form then they can go F themselves quite simply.

Insecurity is one of many mental blockages or illnesses. It prevents you from ever being truly happy or ever having the ability to accept yourself for who you are.

Insecurity also comes from the EGO.

The simple fact that ‘I’ want this, or ‘I’ must have this, automatically illuminates the moral power of your ego over your true self.

Or

‘I’ am not wearing/buying this for anyone else, it’s just for ‘ME’, ‘I’ like it.

I & ME are the words that engage the power of the ego.

YOU don’t need anything. YOU just want it. YOU don’t need a new handbag  because a bag is not a necessity. YOU do not need it to survive, YOU just want it because YOU believe it will make YOU look the part so you have the approval of others. YOU want it because you are greedy or YOU want to show off.

All showing off says is you feel like you have a point to prove. Why do you need to prove a point? Because you want attention. And why would one require attention? Because one feels like they haven’t got enough approval or attention which makes one feel insecure.

The need for approval illustrates that you are lacking security, self worth and self love.

If only you knew…

That the world is an illusion. There is no life nor death. There is only continuation. You don’t even have to die when you die…

Forget about all the things you think you know and start again. You are truly wasting your life away worrying about the opinions of others. The human race, evolution and well being of the planet are merely fictional notions that you consider to be true.

STOP for once in your life and just ask yourself:

Am I truly happy?

Who am I?

What I am doing in this life and world of mine?

Does life make any sense to me?

Does this world make any sense to me?

Am I truly fulfilling all my wants and needs?

AM I DOING THIS FOR ME BECAUSE I WANT TO DO IT, OR AM I DOING THIS BECAUSE OTHER PEOPLE WANT ME TO DO IT???

Be honest when answering these questions. If you don’t know the answers then find them out. The time is now regardless of your ‘situation’.

WHO
AM
I

Yours Truly

Illuminatus

-Om Shanti-

Just ‘Trust’ The Universe!!!

We seem to endlessly search for that success status, the epitome of happiness or expect to stumble upon serendipity daily but why? Today I’d like to help you understand than no matter how hard you work, how hard you look or how hard you try, you aren’t going to make something happen that is not supposed to happen. I don’t care who you think you are!!!

You are who you are, nobody else can be you but you cannot be anybody else either. We live in a world where we are overly influenced by others around us, especially if they have been granted with a successful or fame filled life journey. We see what they have and we want what they have. We proceed to investigate their plans, patterns, moves and ways of life to attempt to intercept the ‘secret’ to replicate what they do, so we too, can be just as ‘successful’.

Such influencers like ‘GARYVEE’ who blurt out about how hard they work and how the key to be successful and happy is to work harder than everyone else until you ‘make it’ are just preposterous. If you aren’t supposed to be the vice president of a large business, a captain of a professional football team or a famous musician, you aren’t going to be, end of. Life has a plan for you and you absolutely need to understand this.

So why would you want to ‘trust the universe’?

You have no choice BUT I do dare you to TRY your utmost to achieve something and succeed at it when its not on your path. Go ahead and waste your time and then when you realise it isn’t going to work come back here and try reading this again.

So if and when you have realised that all you can do is put your trust into the universe and allow your path to form within the present moment as you transcend through your journey then you need to just be. Just be and let things be. Let things grow and let things flourish naturally. Do not endeavour to be someone you are not or to do something you aren’t made to do, just allow the river of life to flow in its peaks and troughs.

Finally, happiness and success are merely states of mind and being. You shall not arrive at happiness as a destination, you also cannot purchase ANYTHING that will get you closer to it. Success, what is success? I think people define success as arriving at the place they always thought they were ‘supposed’ to arrive at. Do you personally postulate that there truly exists a divine consciousness or feeling down the line? A place that exists only in the future? How many people have you heard of or met in your life that have stumbled upon or have been granted this so called state of ‘nirvana’ you believe to exist? Nobody. People seem to believe there is some sort of race or challenge set out to be the first person to reach this state of being, yet it really doesn’t exist. The sad thing is, every era, every decade and every century people still insist on seeking this notional fabricated world, state of being or feeling that they will never obtain. Happiness and success exist only within the present moment, period. The present moment only exists in the ‘now’ which basically means right now! If you cannot feel happiness right this very moment then you are not going to fulfil this feeling at any point in the future with some imaginary car, house, person or material item. Happiness can be developed quite simply by being grateful in the present moment.

We can practice this by thinking about what we DO have instead of what we believe we DON’T have. I have this and that right now and this makes me feel grateful and happy. I have a life, a wife, a car, a home, a dog etc Just thinking of one simple thing can be enough to make you feel grateful. If you struggle then you are just ungrateful. You have to understand or experience that people don’t have anything at all in this world. I have travelled to several third world countries and I have first handedly witnessed people suffering. Human beings that have nothing at all, living on the street, with no food, water, living arrangements or family around them. Unless this is you then you do have something to be grateful for.

Trust that the universe will always guide you on to the right path always. Be a good person. Love others, including the ones you wish not to love. Be present and be grateful to truly experience happiness. Be you and be true. Understand that all things happen for a reason, whether it is part of your success, your failure or an extension of a lesson that you needed to learn. Have faith and trust in the process. You are a soul having a human experience. You are not unique and you are not separate from everyone else. We are all part of the same energy system, the same being and the same life force. We may have slightly different journeys but we are we as a whole, as a unity. We must work with what we have naturally and not against it. Let go of all fears, know that you are loved by the universe and allow it to guide you.

Yours Truly

Illuminatus

-Om Shanti-

 

 

Christmas is SO FAKE & So are YOU!!!

Christmas is so fake.

It is powered by insecurity, peer pressure, false hope, pretentiousness, materialism, social status, money, fake love and most of all powered by a huge fake trap!

GOOGLE defines Christmas as this –

  • The annual Christian festival celebrating Christ’s birth, held on 25 December in the Western Church

Hold on for a moment Jesus’s birth right?

YOU DON’T EVEN BELIEVE IN JESUS!

You don’t go to church, you haven’t read the bible and you don’t follow the TEN Commandments…

So what are you doing?

If you celebrate Christmas then you may as well celebrate groundhog day, ramadan, Hanukkah, Diwali, my birthday, Chinese new year and god knows what other random celebrations there are.

So the most common argument is –

Its a good time to spend time with the family and to share gifts.

OK.

So there is no time in the rest of the year then? NO? OK

Then your life is truly messed up!

You are caught in a prison sentence with your job and you cant even get a day off to spend time with your family… Jees I think you must need to re-evaluate your life then!

Christmas is about giving…

No it isn’t. Its about Jesus being born. It has nothing to do with eating turkey, drinking alcohol and showing off your new Michael Kors bag, watch, camera and shoe set.

You are doing it all wrong. The truth is, yes the TRUTH is you are being drawn into a money trap where you feel you have to do what everyone else is doing by spending all your money that you IMPRISON yourself in all year just to waste it all on material gifts that hold no meaning or love whatsoever. REPEAT – Material items hold no LOVE at all. You are not being loving or caring. That comes from the heart. Perfume, money, clothes aren’t made in your heart.

I saw someone put a tweet out earlier slating people saying that they were so blessed on xmas because they got so many gifts, and how they didn’t know the true meaning of blessed and that they were basically stupid. I agreed. Being blessed has nothing to do with being showered with gifts. Being showered with gifts makes you a material whore. There are millions of people starving, suffering and dying right now and the only thing you are doing is posting pictures all over your social media of all your expensive shiny material objects acting all ‘WOW’ I’m blessed.

So it wasn’t your fault you got all those gifts? BS

I bet your mum and dad didn’t buy you a sheep. WHY? Because they knew you didn’t want or need a sheep. They brought you all the things YOU MANIFESTED. You didn’t ask them to donate they money too charity, so… Don’t look at me like I’m picking holes in you… Im being realistic. You quite happily put on your social media…

Pray for Africa or Iraq or some other fake status…

Yet you do nothing to help those places or people in times of suffering. You are more interested in flashing the cash and showing everyone how material you are.

Apologies for making this all sound so negative but sometimes the truth hurts and is needed.

You are caught in a trap, celebrating something you don’t believe in to work all year to then spend all of your money on pointless crap to then sit on your high horse like look at my gifts or look at how muchI brought my daughter, aren’t I a super amazing parent. NO YOUR’E FCUKING NOT.

Finally father Christmas has nothing to do with JESUS. It has everything to do with NORSE mythology and SIBERIAN shamans gifting MAGIC MUSHROOMS (FLY AGARIC) which is why everything is read and white, there is a Christmas tree which is where the specific mushrooms grow and reindeers absolutely love to eat fly agaric mushrooms. The fact that reindeer fly is because the shrooms are psychedelic… Use your brains 🙂

Its a shame you still believe all the bullshit you got taught at school and you still are acting like a SHEEP following the masses…

WAKE UP.

STOP BEING A SHEEP.

STAY WOKE.

Illuminatus 

Om Shanti

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